Dreams


This is the page of dreams. Or maybe I should call them what they are - premonitions.
Or maybe...as I like to call them, my curse.
Before reading this page, I wholeheartedly recommend you really do read the intro page or at least my Flatlined page.

Transferred to text in 1992 and then to html in 1995
Introduction:
After my death experiences and all that went with them, I started having vivid, colorful, realistic dreams.
But unlike dreams which were "fictitious" with strange monsters or bizarre happenings, these "special dreams" - which I now understand as
premonitions - were different.
They are "real". As in real things and people that are in the real world. I see them through the eyes of someone else who is experiencing what is actually happening in the premonition. I now realize that I should keep written notes when they happen. Typically after the third one, I am pretty sure whatever it is, will happen.
Sometimes I know when and where, but more often the date and time is vague. But I will note any numbers or symbols I see.
So far, as of 1994, none of them involve me directly. It's not me who will be part of the scene, but someone else. Sometimes I get different view points through different people. Many times I am just someone watching the news on TV or hearing a report on the radio.
Some of these premonitions are intense and scary. I've woken up crying or screaming more than once. That's how intense they are.

So let's go. If you've read the introduction page and my flatline page, you're probably ready for this. These are what I see to try to help people prepare. To this day I still don't know exactly how to tell someone about some of these, so maybe creating a web page is the way. I have and will tell friends and those I think can handle it in person, but I don't know if I should write a book or what.

Update 1999 - I am severely cutting down this page because it's too long.
Update: 2000 - I am starting to have a recurring intense premonition, so it might be a good idea to start keeping a "running" update on this page when intense ones happen.
Update July 2006 - Cutting down this page. I have been asked if I only have these dreams on the dates I post. The answer is NO! I have them at least once a week, but many are not worth putting down on this page. They deal with friends or things that happen locally in my daily life. For example, I may have 3 or 4 dreams about a local street corner and a woman being hit by a car. Then it happens a month later. I think it's silly to be posting stuff like that because I get them all the time. So I'm only posting on this page the things that are "big" and have a huge impact on me when I'm awake - they really "bug" me.
Update 2010: The U.S. economic situation has reached me. I lost my full time job. So I'm working part time and consulting in my area of expertise. This means my schedule is crazy and I'll only update this page on occasion. When I have a powerful dream/premonition, I'm still writing down notes when I wake up, but it may be a while before I put them on this page. (This does take a long time to re-type everything I wrote down on paper, since I don't have a personal secretary!)

Update 2 - A series of recurring intense dreams and premonitions are occuring at different times. So I have put "break lines" between related sections on this page.
Be aware that dates may "skip" from one section to the next because I'm now categorizing the related ones together.

Important update - Feb. 2011: In Dec. of last year (2010) I started having what I will call "flash premonitions". It's very scary and I hope it doesn't happen at the wrong time. I am literally awake one minute and suddenly get tired and HAVE to go to sleep - at which a premonition happens almost immediately. When I wake up (lately it's been within 45 mins), I'm awake like normal and then go to bed at regular time. These are very intense and have to do with current/near current time. Over the past few weeks, the one dealing with 2011 - and now a new one that deals with 2012 is happening. On one hand I feel I should copy my notes onto this page, but on the other I don't want to rewrite these. All I can say is very intense/graphic and very detailed. I wake up shaking. Putting on the TV to see if something is happening right then. I've also noticed I'm not sleeping properly overall. Partly because I don't want to see these particular dreams/premonitions. While "watching" I actually yell out "Make it stop! I don't want to see this!"

Thu Nov. 25 1999
Dream or some kind of premonition?
2:30 am EST

I'm typing this from written notes when I woke up at about 2:30 am EST last night.
My exact written notes on pad in pencil:
It's Thu. Nov. 25, 1999. Something scary just woke me up.
Don't think it was a dream. Was in color. Vivid. Very realistic.
Several things happened - seem connected.
Movie like and I was seeing through other peoples eyes.
Started in a desert setting. No trees, just sand everywhere. Don't see anyone, but hear voices more like whispers. I look around and still see no one.
Flash to bright digital display with the numbers 0911. Only a moment.
I saw what appeared to be flashing red and blue lights. Police cars?
My impression was I was in the middle of an emergency of some kind. A LOT of people.
A lot of chaos so couldn't see what exactly was happening. Screaming and yelling.
Flash to people dialing 911 for emergency. Can't hear what the emergency is. Too many voices.
Then I'm sitting in a big airplane. ALL the little signs over the seats are flashing 911.
Sudden explosion in the plane. Ball of fire, screams. 911 keeps flashing.
So many voices and screams. I can't understand it at all.
My initial impression upon waking up:
Airplane blows up and falls in a town. People are calling 911 to report it. I don't know when or where. Maybe people on the ground are hurt and there is damage to houses?
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Wed. Jan. 19, 2000 3:45 am EST

Dream - copied from hand written notes after waking up.
Second similar to Nov. 25 '99 dream or premonition.

Starts same - in a desert, no one around. Whispers.
All in color. I can reach down and pick up the sand. Feel it. Very very real.
Flash to People running in the street. I'm also running. Screams all around.
Buildings. I'm in a city, don't know which one.
Chaos. People calling 911. Debris falling from the sky. I keep running with everyone.
Flash to same plane I was in before. Over seat signs all flashing 911.
The 911 is a symbol..meaning. The signs are not actually flashing 911, I'm seeing it superimposed. Very bright.
I notice everyone is screaming, people are praying. Then explosion and fireball.
Too many voices. Screams.
Impression after waking up: Plane blows up over a city and falls to ground. People are calling 911
because of the emergency. But people on plane know something before it happens?
Engine malfunction and everyone knows there is an emergency before the explosion?
Maybe people on ground are having pieces of a plane that's falling apart fall to the ground, so they're running? Just so much confusion. Not easy to see or hear because it's like sensory overload. Then I wake up.

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Fri. Jan. 21, 2000 3:00 am

Follow up to dream/premonition. Third time of same event.

From hand written note:
WOW! Very powerful. Extremely vivid.
I made an effort as much as I could to focus on details as soon as the desert scene started.
Whispers are saying "death" and "plane" and "bomb".
I'm then running in a city with screams around. Still can't tell which city, but it is definitely U.S.
Tall buildings. It could be any large city. Def. U.S. and American.
In fact I see the word "American" in red, white and blue.
The screams are yelling "GO!" and "RUN!" and "DON'T LOOK BACK!"
I notice there are papers falling from the sky, but the sky itself is blue. Almost perfectly blue. No storm or wind or rain. Sun is out.
Flash to inside airplane again. Signs are all saying 911. People are praying, I hear them clearly.
Some people are crying. I'm not the same person, I'm sitting in a different seat. I'm near a window.
Someone is yelling something in a different language I don't know.
I look out the window and see rooftops of buildings. We are flying close to the level of buildings in a city. Quick glance at water -a river or lake near. Then explosion and fireball comes in from front of plane. Screams of terror. For a fraction of a second I hear a crash and glass breaking before the fire and explosion. In the fire I see flashes of 911 over and over and over. Digital signs, computer like displays, people dialing 911. Voices yelling "a plane hit the building". A flash of 091101 I see for a moment on some kind of sign with digital like numbers.
Something very scary and morbid I see just before waking up. Bodies falling from the sky and hitting the ground.

Impression: This is the 3rd time. Much more vivid and I really tried to see and hear details. A plane hits a building in a large city near water. Most cities are near water, so could be any city in the U.S.  People in the plane KNOW something IS going to happen. Definitely a U.S. city. The 911 system will be overloaded. I get a very strong feeling it is not an accident. More likely a hijacking. The 091101 could signify 911 being a "priority" that day since so many people will be calling. Or the 01 could be a digital switch to direct the priority of some kind, since it's a digital sign I see.
When the plane hits the building, it breaks apart and bodies fall to the ground as people on the ground run away.

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Other notes on this particular event: (Update this section as needed with dates)
Same/smilar dreams on:
Jan. 29, 2000 at 4 am
March 15, 2000 at 3:30 am
August 30, 2000 at 12:30 am
November 10, 2000 at 2:30 am
January 3, 2001 at 3:30 am - Added note of briefly sitting in a different airplane with other people on phones calling 911. This AFTER the explosion/fireball event. There is tension among everyone. People are also talking to family about what is going on.  My impression is everyone on another plane knows what has happened and is concerned since they are flying at about the same time.

February 19, 2001 at 5 am - Added note that I was again sitting briefly on another plane after the explosion. People definitely know what happened. The news is getting around all the passengers. This other plane may also be hijacked on the same day. I look out the window and see only sky and the ground below. No buildings or problems. Just a lot of tension among everyone. A lot of whispering and chatter as if everyone is trying to not be obvious. The tension is so high though.

April 10, 2001 at 2:30 am - Added note: Other plane is definitely hijacked. Other passengers are planning to overtake hijackers. I hear plans are being made. 2 or 3 guys on this plane are either police or some kind of authorities. I still see no city or buildings around. The plane is flying in nice weather, the sun is out. I see 091101 many times flash. My impression is this plane is overtaken by passengers because I don't see any explosion or any people running on the ground.

July 5, 2001 at 3 am EDT - Added note: Previous notes repeated pretty much but with addition:
I see a news report on TV. Reporter is no one I recognize, but he says "all planes grounded" and I see a computer display of air traffic control with no planes on the map of the U.S. The words "historic" and "terror" appear in flashes. I get the feeling something is going to happen really soon. It's a feeling of urgency when I wake up. Kind of like "it's happening right now, stupid! Turn on the TV!". I actually put CNN at 3:15 am on and there's nothing, but it's still dark out. Twilight is just starting. The number "11" or letters "II" flash several times. Is it 11 am/pm? or "II" something?

August 28, 2001 at 2:30 am EDT - This dream/premonition is really getting an "urgent" feeling. More than back in July. I see more news flashes of reports of the plane crash. Still don't see what city, but it's one of the big ones. Could be Chicago, LA or NYC. I try to make an effort to see where I am.
I get the feeling it's "close" - like NYC. I woke up and actually felt sick. Had to run to bathroom and throw up when I woke up. This is going to be big whatever it is. A lot of people are going to die before their time. That is the very strong feeling I'm getting. It's not their time. This could screw things up for years when it does happen. Sets the stage for a lot of sadness and then anger, strong anger that lasts years. Negativity that sets off other bad events.

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September 11, 2001...091101..9/11/01... 4 pm EDT - 2 planes destroy the Twin Towers in NY. Another (3rd) strike the Pentagon in Washington DC. A 4th plane crashes in a field in western PA.
It has been a hard day. I can't believe what I'm seeing in reality today. It is unreal.
I'm on "vacation" this week and have called the local first aid squad to see if they need help. I leave in about an hour to go to NYC to help with first aid in the city. Squads from all over NY, NJ and CT are going into the city. This is so unreal.  I wish this was just a dream again and I will just wake up.
It's horrible. Utterly horrible. Thousands have died today. All ages, races, men, women. It's horrible.
I can only imagine what I will see tonight.
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September 14, 2001... 6 pm.. The news this week has been crazy. America was under attack. 4 planes were HIJACKED. The one in PA was apparently on course to crash into the White House or maybe another landmark in DC. Apparently they crashed in PA because the PASSENGERS overtook the plane or tried to - and in the chaos it went out of control and crashed at full speed into the ground. A theory is they crashed it there so no one else on the ground would get hurt. The news is reporting the passengers were MAKING CALLS TO FAMILY and found out what had happened in NY and Washington already.  My premonition now makes sense. 911 wasn't only the emergency number, but also the date. The weather that morning was CLEAR and the sun was out - EXACTLY the way I saw it.
WHY? WHY ME? Why didn't I have enough information to DO SOMETHING?! WHY? WHY? WHY?
The attack is now believed to have come from the Middle East and a terrorist group which hides in the desert. I'm guessing that's the sand and whispers connection I saw/felt/heard.
This has been going through my head like wildfire. IF I had called the White House, they would have EASILY thought I was in on something and would have been investigated. Even if I called the mayors office in NYC and alerted them to evacuate (if I had known the exact details), I would have been investigated and probably put in jail as part of the scheme. Would anyone have believed me anyway? Was I 'supposed' to do anything? (This was SO HORRIBLE, why shouldn't I have told someone who could have made a difference?) Premonitions like this could cause more trouble...so WHY?!  I ask God WHY and get no answer. Why can't the president or someone who could DO something get these types of premonitions? They could do something. Yeah, yeah - changing the timeline and the course of history - bla bla bla comes to mind. So why see this stuff before if NOTHING can be done anyway. This is going to drive me crazy.
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Sunday Nov. 26, 2000
2:00 am EST
From my hand written notes:
I just woke up from a very strange dream. I saw a bunch of "news clips" as if I was watching TV news. But it was different channels and different reporters.
They are showing what appears to be a river of mud. I saw the words "thousands dead" and "natural disaster".
Then suddenly I am sitting on a beach. There are people all around and buildings, small hut like structures. It looks like a tropical resort type of scene.
I can't tell exactly where I am, but it's warm. The ocean has some boats on it and it's sunny. Then there's a flash and I'm in muddy water with people screaming all around. At that point I just woke up.
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Feb. 27, 2001 at 1:30 am
From my hand written notes:
I just had that same dream with the muddy water and TV news clips. In addition to "thousands dead" and "natural disaster", I also see a report from the USGS. But I can't see exactly what geological event they are reporting on. It could be a volcano or earthquake. Not sure.
On the beach I am the same person looking around and I hear nothing unusual (like rumbling or explosion).
My thought - maybe it's a volcanic eruption on an island and there is a mudslide or stream re-direction? Don't know the date or time, other than it's daytime.
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June 14, 2002
From my hand written notes:
I wake up gasping for air when I don't have to. I was just in muddy water.
Before that, there were TV news clips with reports of a "natural disaster". I have seen this before.
I'm on a beach looking around as one person. Then I am closer to the ocean watching the water recede so far out that small boats are becoming grounded.
Someone is yelling for everyone to run away from the shore. Screaming get away from the water, but a lot of people are just standing and watching. Fish are flopping around in the sand. I start running away from the beach.
Then I saw more TV clips of "natural disaster" and "thousands dead" and "thousands missing".  I am in muddy water clinging to a tree. All sorts of debris and bodies are floating by. A gush of water pushes me under and I come up gasping when I wake up.
I think maybe a giant wave has come ashore where I am, because of the far recede of the water. That is typical before a tsunami. Don't know exactly where.
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October 16, 2003 Thursday at 4 :10 am
From my hand written notes:
I was just in a tidal wave event. It's huge. I think I'm on an island or tropical resort. This is the same one I saw before. Over a year ago, but it's so obvious. More info this time.
I see news flashes with "Magnitude 9 Earthquake", "thousands dead or missing", "natural disaster". There is a huge earthquake underwater.
On the beach I see the water recede far out and start running. I look back to see waves like I have never seen before. It is sunny and warm.
I run past what appears to be a hotel, there are "happy holidays" signs in english and what I guess is other languages. I feel like I am in a resort where people go on vacation. The water comes, it's muddy and full of debris and bodies. I briefly see a USGS report that says "megathrust".
Deduction - this is going to be huge. A megathrust quake is the worst kind and underwater could trigger a massive tsunami. If it's mag. 9, wow. that is big.
Holiday signs could be because it's a resort or maybe around a holiday that it occurs.
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Dec. 20, 2004 Monday, 3:15 am
From my hand written notes:
I just had that dream about the earthquake and tsunami. It's been a while, but so vivid this time.
It's the same as before as I remember. Check notes on last time.
TV reports of massive destruction and death. I saw "mag. 9 megathrust" on USGS report. Thousands left homeless.
I saw a map of Indonesia with a center marker for the earthquake. I am on the beach watching water recede and huge waves approaching as I run.
People screaming. Houses and huts being washed away. I run past a hotel or resort building with what looks like christmas lights in the windows and happy holidays signs in english and a few other languages.  It's Dec. 20 now and I get the feeling this is going to happen soon. A feeling of urgency. When I woke up I want to turn on the TV and check to see if something is happening right now. (5 mins later) I watched CNN and there's nothing being reported. Going back to sleep if I can.
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While I was on vacation visiting family for the holidays:
December 26, 2004 - Deadly tsunami raced across the Indian Ocean. Triggered by a 9-9.3 magnitude megathrust earthquake that shifted the Burma plate under the Indian Ocean. Preliminary estimates are the undersea rupture was 600 miles long and moving the seafloor by 10 yards or more horiz. and more than 5 yard vert. This created tsunamis nearly 100 feet high. Current estimates are over 100,000 people have died. Coastlines have been destroyed and the ecological damage in the Indian Ocean has not been figured out yet. But with that motion, massive destruction on the sea floor to all kinds of sea life is likely.

Mon. Nov. 6, 2006 6:00 am
From my original notes:
I heard screams. Many flashes of light. I am suddenly in Times Square NY looking up on NYE. The celebration is for 2011.
TV screens flashing "2011". I hear shooting and gun noises. More screams. I see people running and I start running with them. Not sure where I am.
Tall thin man standing in behind podium saying "it will get better". He looks like a politician. People chanting "yes we can", very loud.Very clear.
Then more screams. I wake up shaking.
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Jan. 14, 2007 - Sunday - 1:45 am EST
From my original notes:
Screams, flashes of light, 2011 signs. NYE in Times Square. Countdown to 2011.
TV screens and signs saying "2011" over and over.
Tall thin man in shadow standing behind podium - very dark. He says "things are getting better" and "it will get better". Appears to be politician.
Gun shot sounds. I am in a crowd of people running. I see people fighting, store fronts being smashed (glass breaking).
Flash of light and I am in what appears to be a church. Families with children are sitting and standing, very crowded. Everyone looks sad.
Someone is coming around handing out food. I wake up in tears.
Possibility: Is there a natural disaster? People left homeless and there's looting?
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Fri 10/31/08 - 3 am
From my original notes:
Just had the 2011 dream again. Haven't had this one in a long time.
Maybe because it was halloween? Flashes of signs of 2011. Same tall thin man in shadow speaking somewhat like a preacher.
"it will get better", "things are getting better".  I am in NYC at Times Square watching 2011 come in on NYE. People cheering. Then I hear gunshots.
People screaming. I'm in a church, sadness. Families getting food. I am cold and watching TV and see news flash "globe in turmoil".
I am standing outside a house, not sure where. Ground shakes violently, it's an earthquake. Suddenly I see a volcanic eruption, then just as fast I see a huge tornado.
More screams and people fighting. It's very "rapid fire". Flashes of "2011" over and over. I wake up in tears.
What I think at this point: The tall thin man is Barack Obama who is running for president - and appears will win the election.
The world is in turmoil with a lot of things happening that hurt a lot of people. Several natural disasters. There is desperation. When I wake up I feel very sad and hopeless - like the people I see. He is trying to comfort people in a speech or press conference. But it's not helping.
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July 14, 2010 - 3:00 am
From my original notes:
2011 one. NYE in Times Square, everyone partying. Flashes of 2011. Had this one last night, but woke up at that point.
Tonight is more flashes. Screaming. I also hear strong wind sound. Lots of wind! See tornado, big one. Quick flashes of people with guns running around in the street.
I'm running, too. Explosion and I see a volcano erupt. Then I'm on a ground that's shaking and people running around. Stuff falling.
News report flashing all kinds of "emergency bulletin" and "news flash" type reports. Feeling of anxiety, dispair.
People in church getting food. I wake up during an explosion. Don't know cause.
My feeling right now - this is not one event, but several things that happen during 2011. I'm seeing different places and times. It's very chaotic.
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October 24, 2010 - Sunday - 5 am
From my original notes:
Had the 2011 nightmare again. I'm still shaking. Starts with the NYE party in NY. 2011 sign flashing. People yelling happy new year.
Then screaming, yelling, gunshot sounds. Loud explosion and bright light. Flash to standing on side of the road watching a huge tornado. It's a highway.
Houses getting destroyed in distance. Then I'm running with people, turn around and a volcano is erupting. Loud rumbling noises.
Flash of 2011 then the words "Devastating". Watching a TV with "news flash" of "Major Earthquake". I'm then on the side of a street with stuff falling, ground is shaking. I see huge waves - maybe a tsunami. Then I'm in a church standing with people waiting for food. It's unrelated to the earthquake though. People have no money and no work.
Feeling of sadness and dispair. I hear a man laughing at a distance and see flashes of dollar signs and other currency symbols.
Another loud explosion. Crowd of people holding hands crying. I wake up shaking. Feeling of urgency.

February 14, 2011 - Monday - at 4:30 am.
From my hand written notes: Just had the 2011 one again. Same stuff. Starts with New Years for this year. Explosions. Dead people. Gunshots. Flash of the words "bloody revolutions" (plural). News flashes of major earthquake, more bodies. Huge waves rushing inland, looks like a tsunami because weather isn't stormy. I'm standing on a road watching a huge tornado in the distance. Screams. Then I'm running away from more loud explosions, turn around and see a volcano erupting. Stuff shooting into the sky. It's warm like summer. Flash to desperate people, no money, I see store shelves - grocery store - the store is empty but shelves are full.  Then I see something horrible. Words flashing, numbers with 2011 mixed in.[See note below] Very intense. I wake up sweating and heart pounding.
Note: This is one entry that I have decided NOT to copy exactly what I saw or the words or numbers I see flashing. They are vivid and very direct in meaning. Therefore I have decided not to put them on this page or anywhere else. Maybe at some point I will, but just not now.
Added note: 10/1/13... Going back through some written notes that I never put on this page, I noticed I really mentally blocked out some of the stuff that I purposefully didn't copy here onto this page. But maybe it's a good thing to condense and put some of it on here to "follow through". This 2011 premonition was followed by several similar ones (including the 2/21/11 below) that happened during early to mid 2011. They actually developed into a "collection" of several things/events in one nasty premonition at one time. It involved world events of war (which now, in 2013 are happening like wildfire in the Middle East - including several horrible chemical weapon attacks that have killed thousands of innocent citizens in Syria) - and "Superstorm Sandy" which also killed many across the Caribbean and eastern US with winds, waves, storm surges and even a blizzard in 2012. Oklahoma (near relatives there) experienced 2 catastrophic tornadoes this past spring (2013) - as well as storm and earthquake generated wave events in the western Pacific, during 2011-2013. Again, I was seeing a "collection" of stuff all at once, so originally it was hard to discern specific dates, places and times. The "stuff shooting into the sky" in my original notes had evolved into huge fireballs moving across the sky. My notes questioned if they were bombs, missiles or ???? because it was followed by explosions. On Feb. 13, 2013 a large bolide/fireball flew across the skies of parts of Russia. We didn't see it coming. It created a large sonic compression wave that resulted in explosion like sounds and damage to buildings. Hundreds of people were hurt. When it hit the news, it made sense to me. It was widely photographed, the shock waves were actually detected around the world and parts of the object did make impact. Another bright fireball I actually witnessed myself in March 2013 with many others - which also made the news. No impact or explosions, but significant and out-of-the-ordinary. Several other bright fireballs have been widely observed in various places in the past few years. So those were what I was seeing - being part of everything else that I was seeing at the same time. This premonition evolved into what I originally called the "2012 dream" - but actually is the "collection" going further into at least 2016.  As for the people in my family, I won't go into too much detail (and no names), but there is a lot of hardship going around - and sickness. As for other people I know, there has been a death that was a suicide and it was not fast. I'm leaving out the details on purpose. Other friends are being negatively affected by bad/abusive relationships, work, and illness. But from my point of view, I was experiencing these things - knowing who I was around at the time. That's what made it really horrible for me.
Below is the entry from 2/21/11 at 3 am - which is part of this..... Then the one in March, I have more details on and will add a section below that.
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February 21, 2011 - Monday - 3 am.
I am writing this direct to this web page. I can't sleep. I'm afraid to see these things. I close my eyes and almost immediately they start. The 2011 dream/premonition is becoming bizarre because actual events are happening. But there's so many things that are part of it, some are happening now and other parts haven't happened yet. I'm also now seeing what I call a "2012 dream" which involves next year. It's also very intense. But the worse part is ..and maybe I shouldn't actually write this..I am seeing people I know, their families and friends that I know. So it's becoming more personal. I'm also seeing stuff that is just plain too intense to put into words.  Am I supposed to tell these people and prevent things from happening or change them? Since I 'become' people in these premonitions and see things from their perspective, I am seeing and doing things of these people I know.  I have dealt with death enough and to view someone killing themself, THROUGH THEIR EYES is just too extreme. I should not see that. I feel what they feel, but I know I'm just viewing it. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? It's 3:15 am, here I am writing this and wishing it would all stop. I wish I could wake up and it's years ago before all this started and everything was just a bad dream. Do I go back to bed and hope for the best or do I just stay up? It's snowing outside and everything is turning white. It's quiet and peaceful to look out. Why can't my sleep be the same?

March 1, 2011 - Tuesday - 4:15 am
From my hand written notes: Just had the 2011 nightmare again. Not sure if current events are tainting this one, but seeing pretty much the same things.
More detail though. More "news" type flashes of "global turmoil" and "revolution". More money symbols and a lot of laughing and sinister sounding giggles. A newspaper type headline saying "Economy Collapses". It's written in english. I saw a news type program with "burning" dollars. Lots of dispair. People standing in lines for food. Saw the tornado, it's huge. Unrelated, saw volcano erupt again and felt the earthquake. I'm standing in a street and there's an earthqauke - unrelated to the volcano. Flash to huge waves and then I'm watching the news with bulletins of "major earthquake and tsunami". Map of Pacific ocean with waves drawn on it. I was viewing from someone else when the waves hit a bunch of boats and push them into buildings. Huge tornado. Lots of debris falling. Many people died. There's many other tornadoes, but one really devastating one. Then flash to a protest scene, then another, then another...different protests. Some political, some union/workers, some students protesting schools. Various places around the world. I see different languages and ethnic backgrounds. News type flash of "Rage" in big red letters. While all this is going on (there is so much), sudden flash of "2012" in bold bright light. I see more people, some I know or their relatives and many I don't know. It's very scary. I hear all kinds of noises, screams, cries, protesting crowds, guns. I see something horrible again that I will NOT write here. But something unusual happens. I see a bright "light" in the shape of a question mark - "?". I hear a whispering voice say these exact words, "There is a choice. There is a choice." I am then standing in a field, but it's not me. I'm yelling "What is the choice?", but again, it's not me. The sky slowly turns from blue to black. I hear the whisper again, "The choice can still be changed, but not for much longer." Then it suddenly gets very bright, almost too bright to keep eyes open. I hear more screams, protests, gunshots. All these sound sort of all together with the bright light all around. Then it suddenly stops with a very loud bang and I think I'm going to wake up. But I wake up within the dream as someone else. Not sure where I am. I get out of bed and I'm in a house and look outside. It looks like a late spring day, butterflies flying around, birds singing, flowers in bloom. I hear a TV in another room and hear someone (on TV) say "the worse is over. " Then someone else who sounds like a commentator says "the world has really changed, I just can't believe it." Then I see the big bright question mark again. Then I woke up. Also of note, several times I saw "Kentucky" - as in the state, throughout this dream. I saw the outline of the state, I was in a car briefly that was in Kentucky (saw signs), I heard the word several times. It was like quick flashes here and there and seemed disconnected, but it must mean something. Also, the 2011 and 2012 dreams seem connected now.
Note on 10/1/13.... This was part of that series of 2011, 2012..and beyond..collection of premonitions that came all at once. There were variations, but they actually go into at least 2016. I stopped putting them on this page on purpose, as mentioned above.  But now in 2013, we see the economy isn't really doing better - for a number of reasons. People are losing money due to rising costs and saving less. Numerous natural disasters have left people homeless for long periods. The major tornadoes happened earlier this year. There are protests over jobs, healthcare issues (especially this year), politics and civil wars overseas. Just a lot of turmoil in a relatively short period of time.
In April 2011 to the middle of September, my notes mention the "voice" came through more times. Over and over I saw the question marks and heard about "choices".  From what I can figure out now, in 2013, is some major choices were made in 2012 that have taken "all of us" on a path to where we are today. On Oct. 12, 2013 (a Friday) at 2:30 am, I wrote down that I had that same premonition. But that was the FIRST time the "voice" didn't mention a choice. Instead, it said "The path is set..." and other things like "no turning back".  No more question marks. After the extreme brightness, more sounds of dispair, gunshots, screaming and they don't stop. Instead, I flash to standing in the field looking around and the sky is blue and it turns red - not black. Then I'm sitting and watching TV in a big house with other people I don't know. There is a reporter talking about all kinds of horrible things. It's like a "time lapse" report showing people in dispair, dead bodies, bad economic news, fighting, protests, etc... Someone in the house says "turn this off, there's never any good news anymore.", then the TV goes off and I'm in darkness. I wake up feeling very worried and "antsy" and actually have to get up and walk around for a few moments before going back to sleep.
Below is what I originally started writing back in 2011 about what was actually happening. More has obviously happened since then, but I don't have the time to copy everything else I wrote down.
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Below I'm going to start a "running tally" of what's happening in 2011 that is confirming what I've seen. Only the significant events that are "historic" will be noted, since many events (natural and manmade) happen worldwide everyday.
Jan. 28, 2011 - Adding this note as it pertains to the gunshots and people running in my original 2006 and mentioned later on Jan. 14, 2007 with crowds in the street, gunshots, etc... Today there is turmoil in Egypt. They are at the brink of a revolution. Several people are dead, people are causing turmoil in the streets. The President has asked the entire" gov't to resign and he will appoint a new government". People want change and and have burned down the presidential building. It's all over the news.  The scene is exactly what I saw in the dream.  Also, over the past few weeks there have been historic storms around the world - from major snow in the eastern U.S, to historic flooding in Australia, to unusually high temperatures near the arctic - which is causing a shift in upper level winds globally. The U.S. dollar is in jeopardy of losing its status as the world reserve currency and Congress is going to be voting to raise the U.S. debt ceiling.
So 2011 is off to a very rocky start politically and as far as nature is concerned.
Feb. 15, 2011 - Adding this note to above. Egypt's president has resigned the other day. Military rules the country and say they will honor all international agreements until an election by the people. On the outside, many people looking at this feel this is a free democracy forming. There are questions as to who or what organization will become the leader.
Feb. 21, 2011 - Adding this additional note as protests have also been going on in Libya. The dictator, Qaddafi (or however you spell it) is currently murdering people via his military dropping bombs on demonstrators. Meanwhile, other nations in the region are also protesting/demonstrating to overthrow governments. A lot of turmoil. Pretty much what I saw in the premonition. Earlier this morning I couldn't sleep and put an entry above rather than here. Re-reading it I can see these things are really getting to me.
March 1, 2011 - Last week there was a strong earthquake in New Zealand, which was just a few weeks after they had major flooding followed by one of the strongest hurricanes ever that also hit Australia. Currently more turmoil in Libya, protests in the U.S. (unions) and some turmoil in Saudi Arabia. Gas prices are reaching all time highs. Currently up around 20 cents in about a week. National avg. is $3.29/gal. There's talk of $4+/gal. possibly by this summer if things don't calm in the middle east.
March 11, 2011 - Massive 8.9 Earthquake occurs just offshore of Japan. Reports are this is the worse earthquake in Japan's history. Tsunami follows the quake in Japan and washes away everything near the coast. Death toll is still rising as this happened just hours ago. The tsunami hit Hawaii (they had warning), Alaska and people are going to higher ground on the west coast of north, central and south America. Hours of high waves and seas are causing damage thousands of miles away from Japan. There is concern that 1 and possibly 2 nuclear power plants may have a "melt down" in Japan because cooling water isn't getting to the hot rods in the reactors. Also, it was the "Day of Rage" in Saudi Arabia with protesters in the streets. Meanwhile in Libya, Ghaddafi (or however you spell his name) sent troops to fight the opposition freedom forces - which are retreating. It is believed he did this while the international eyes are on the Japan earthquake and tsunami.
April 17, 2011 - April 14-16, one of the largest severe weather outbreaks over 3 days. Started in Oklahoma north to Illinois and spread east to the southeast. Latest report is 44 dead due to violent tornadoes. Yesterday (Saturday) was the worse severe weather/tornado outbreak in North Carolina history. 22 killed in tornado related events. The Weather Channel and National Weather Service is calling it one of the worse severe weather outbreaks in recent history. There could be another one this week across the same areas and farther north. The severe weather outbreak was also responsible for a widespread damaging wind event, even where tornadoes didn't occur. A lot of wind damage across the same general area.
May 21, 2011 - I felt the need to post an update here on this day. Many (probably thousands at least) believe today is "Judgement Day" or "the end of the world" (again). Based on my dreams, it certainly isn't - so I was never really concerned with "the end". However, in some respects, it might as well be. A lot of "bad" things ARE going on. Just to follow up, one of the worst severe weather outbreaks occured a few weeks ago during the last few days of April. A HUGE EF-4 tornado leveled several towns in the south and had a damage path nearly 200 miles long. Alabama was hard hit. I saw the images/videos on TV during and after the storm. Several were exactly what I saw in the "2011" dream when I mentioned the "big tornado". Many were killed, imjured and loss their homes/everything. It's going to be a long time for clean up. The Middle East is still in major turmoil. President Obama wants Isreal's border to revert back to what it was in 1967. Huh? Does he actually want that? Seems like he WANTS to stir up more trouble over there. Why? Speaking of middle East, watch for major news in Egypt over the next few YEARS. Definitely Egypt - I saw the Pyramids and images of Egyptian history, so it's definitely Egypt that needs to be watched. There is going to be a political change to something that WON'T LAST. There will be signs that will be ignored. There will be news of support (even the U.S.), but there will be background problems that will be ignored. (Again, why?) American $$ and supplies will be almost eagerly be given to this new power that we hardly have an idea of their agenda. Some news will ask the questions, but they will be dismissed. This new power WILL NOT LAST and will be forced out by the militia. America will supoort this change AGAIN, but there will be motives behind this that can't be trusted. Just wait and see. All is not quiet and not as it seems in that part of the world.  I get the feeling some or someone on American soil wants turmoil to cover for issues on this side of the Atlantic.

Dec. 1, 2009 2 am
From my original notes:
I'm standing in what appears to be a village. It's very warm. People are walking in the street. It looks tropical. Humid.
Ground starts to shake violently. I hear loud rumbles, like an explosion. Buildings start falling.
I see news reports on TV of "major earthquake". I'm back on ground standing next to a falling building. I see dust and rocks falling and I'm hit.
Then I wake up.
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Dec. 9, 2009 8 am
From original notes:
I'm waking up with twilight outside as normal. But had the big earthquake dream again.
Same thing. I am in a warm and humid place. Daytime. Seems tropical or at least near equator. Plants look tropical.
People walking around streets and along side of road when a loud rumble - almost like an explosion sound happens.
The ground starts shaking violently. Everything goes nuts. People are running and falling.
I see a news flash on a TV screen that says "major earthquake".  Then I wake up.
It's very real. Going to turn on the TV. It feels like it's happening now.
Just saw TV, no report of anything. I still have that "urgent" feeling.
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January 8, 2010 at 3:45 am
From my written notes:
Earthquake dream. VERY vivid and feeling urgent.  I hear people talking. Some english and some foreign. There are different people there.
I see native people and visitors. It's definitely tropical. I see a sign for a hurricanes written in language I don't know. It has the hurricane symbol though.
So someplace near the ocean.  Violent ground shaking and sounds of rumbles and explosions. Sun is in west and setting but still daylight.
TV screen flashing "breaking news", "major earthquake". I see a flash of the number "7".  People are crushed by falling debris and buildings.
Screams, running, people falling. I wake up and thought my bed was shaking. Very scary and very strong feeling of urgency. Going to get up and turn on the TV and see if there's anything going on.
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Tuesday - Jan. 12, 2010 -
Major Earthquake strikes Haiti. Magnitude 7.  First reports are of devastation near the capitol. It starts around 5 pm local time, just before sunset.
News reports are thousands are dead or missing. Estimates are over 100,000 have died. It's horrible. Reports from there are few right now because of the infrastructure damage. Large parts of the city are leveled to rubble.

June 29-30, 2011
(From my handwritten notes.) Still having more tornadoes destroying things. A school is hit and will become BIG news. Many survivors, but questions about safety. I was viewing TWO big tornadoes, one was like a wall of rain and cloud that was so big it was hard to believe it was one large tornado. There will be death of people who are studying it. A lot of destruction. The two big ones are not related. Different dates.
Sept. 20, 2011 - Big tornadoes again. Definitely 2 different events but closely related. Springtime. Around the same time. Maybe a day apart or within a week or so of each other. I saw cleanup from one and then sirens and people running again. Land is flat, looks like the plains. People know what to do, so must be tornado alley (KS/OK/TX area). But the storms are so big, many can't get away or to safety in time. The 2nd one is definitely going to be huge. People hurt and death to storm chasers. It's going to be on live TV, we will see the destruction as it happens. Very sad. People left homeless, losing everything. People trapped trying to escape.
This isn't soon. Not next year, but within 3 years. 2013-2014?
Jan. 18, 2012 - 2 big tornado dream again. Not this year. Not urgent. They're big and will be rated EF-5. Not same day. Traffic jam with the bigger of the two. People are very scared. The bigger one could be record setting. I see children crying and debris flying everywhere. I see Oklahoma license plates on cars driving by as I watch the big one off in the distance from side of the road. Storm chasers driving toward it. Some will die because the storm will erratically change and they will be trapped. Both storms will be within 50 miles of each other. Not the same day. Cleanup will have started from the first.
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October 2, 2012: UNUSUAL - involves me and where I work. 3:30 am - I wake up thinking I'm at one of my jobs. Very weird. I'm in the office with co-workers and we're all talking. What's weird is we're ALL there crammed into the small office. Normally we all are there on different days and times. But we're just talking about "work stuff". Then 2 of them are suddenly facing away from everyone else. They've turned their back to everyone else and are facing the wall. I call their names to get their attention and they both continue to silently face the wall.
Dec. 11, 2012 4 am - Office with co-workers again. We all now know the "boss" is being fired by contract not being renewed next year. (This is reality, it's already being set into motion.) We're discussing how bad this move is. It's all purely "political" due to the overall atmosphere. The same 2 people wind up facing the wall and not continuing to talk to rest of us. It's weird because it's (the names of these people I will not put on this web page) and it makes no sense. Then it's suddenly another day and I'm sitting in the boss' office talking and we're discussing the same 2 people in a way that leads me to think they have betrayed everyone else for their own benefit.  Doesn't make sense because they don't seem to be people who would do that. (One moreso than the other.)
Dec. 31, 2012 at 5 am - I'm sort of waking up and the "office dream" starts again. Same thing - 2 people face the wall, later discussion about these 2 people. I see the words "betrayal" and hear that song about "back stabbers" (old song). Hopes of a possible positive outcome of what's going on wind up not happening. Friendships broken and people just do things to save their job and not care about anyone else. Overall atmosphere changes to negative. I hope it won't be as bad as this dream portrays, because it directly involves me.
Jan. 19, 2013 2:15 am - Had the "office dream" again. Same pattern over again. It's later this year. Summer. Things aren't going well. The two people who "betray" everyone else are still there, but nothing is as it should. Other staff are like robots - coming in, do their job, then leave. The passion and feeling of team work isn't there anymore. Everyone is "in the dumps", except the 2 betrayers. Although I get the feeling they're just pretending to be "positive" while they watch everything fall apart around them. New people are brought in who are left clueless about many things, but the stage has already been set for the slow downward spiral of the place. Very sad. I don't see myself there for this part.
JULY 2013 - update - Much of what I saw has come true. There are a lot of sad feelings about what happened. The 2 individuals I saw as the "back stabbers" also came true. They seemed to have worked together to "save themselves", while everything else fell apart around them.  Things are not going well overall and I am not really part of it anymore.  Although I have left myself open to try to help, at this point "they" don't seem to even care anymore. Maybe I shouldn't, either.
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NOV. 2013: Over the past week I've had a recurring dream/premonition that is unlike any before. It's more of a "now" premonition - so it's not really seeing anything in the future. It's also "me" in the "scene" - I'm not seeing anything through anyone else. So here it is:

11/6/13: (From my handwritten note upon awakening.) Same one as this past weekend and last week. In the big "warehouse like hospital setting". I got a better view. It's more like a huge "box store" with bed/table like structures in rows of hundreds/thousands. "Doctor"-like beings (kind of like tall angel/people like beings) are everywhere moving around from bed/table to bed/table. There's people I know and most I don't know on the table/beds. These people appear and disappear constantly - being replaced immediately when they "disappear". There are others like me seeing everything that is going on. The "doctors" are pointing a long "gunlike" instrument at everyone's head. There's no noise, no needle or penetration. It's being used kind of like a "magic wand", waving around everyone's heads. The people are looking at big books that have pages that seem like "ipads" with moving pictures/movies. They are images/movies of everything the person "knows" or recently experienced. (Like they're all seeing a "video" of their recent life.) Some are screaming, crying and others are just watching like "couch potato zombies" (not really caring, just sitting or lying there watching). The "doctors" are selectively "wiping" their memory of certain things. I know because as the "wand" is waved, images are disappearing and changing into entirely different things/events on the screenlike pages. The people are being asked specific questions about their life and experiences - and when the selected memories/experiences are "wiped" or changed, that person disappears and a new person is there in the same situation.
While this is going on, I'm one of many people running around pleading/begging the "doctors" to stop what they're doing. Again, I'm seeing people I actually know going through this.  I look at some of the "pages" of these books and yell at some of the people to "REMEMBER THIS, DON'T FORGET IT!" - then one of the "doctors" comes by with the "wand" and it's all been changed. One tells me "No, this person no longer experienced that, it's been changed and this is what they will remember." I exclaim that it's "NOT THE TRUTH - the truth is being changed for everyone. WHY?!" The "truth" is current AND future things this person knows and it's being erased and changed. The "doctors" are deciding what is being remembered and what isn't or changed.  I keep running around trying to get them to stop doing this. Several others are doing the same to no avail. We're (me and these others trying to stop everything) are not being punished or anything - it's almost like we're being ignored most of the time - or just getting a simple explanation of "We can't stop." by the "doctors". I try to tell people what's going on and they tell me "You're crazy, you don't know what you're talking about."  Finally, I see a "doctor" who appears more of the "leader" and I go up to him. I beg "Please stop this, this isn't right. Everyone can't be like this - let them remember their lives the way they really happened." He looks at me and smiles and says "They can't. It would be too much. They're not prepared to know the truth." I then ask him to "Erase me - change what I know..if no one else knows anything of the truth, then I don't want to know either." This "leader" looks at me and around the huge room at the others trying to stop what's going on - and says VERY LOUDLY "You who see this and what's happening are supposed to know. WE chose you to be able to see. The others are not ready to see, and it would be dangerous if they knew the truth. You were chosen to be allowed to see for a reason!" I ask "For what reason? WHY US?" He looks down at me and says "Seeing what you can see and knowing what you know and all the others we allow this for, would be dangerous if it was mass knowledge. Everything would be in turmoil! Think hard about this and you will understand!"  When I ask again "But WHY?" He says "You will understand. Think about it and it will become clear how this could be dangerous to society." Then I suddenly wake up.

11/11-14/13: Same dream and almost the same situation. I'm running around (and others are, too) saying "STOP THIS!" and so on. The "leader" talks to me a little more about what is going on. The memories are being wiped because many of them include premonitions, seeing "the other side" and what we normally call "paranormal". Since we (as humans) are actually locked into the universe on a cellular level and are all part of the "big picture" - EVERYONE has the capability to "see" stuff like some of us do. We call it "6th sense" or "feelings" of paranormal things or "intuition". Those things (and other select experiences and memories) are being removed regularly by the "doctors". (Again, they're not really doctors - and there is no "big box hospital" - it's a way of them showing me in a simple way so I can understand.) Since we are individuals and also part of the collective universe (and HAVE the capability to experience and know everything), it would be "dangerous" to most of us because our "humanity" also includes traits of lesser life on Earth - insects, reptiles, lower mammals, etc... In our daily life, we couldn't cope with knowing/seeing/understanding so much. It would be "too much" and society would break down.  But at the same time, "everything" can't be "wiped", so we experience little bits all the time (as "6th sense", intuition, deja vu, etc...) and use those feelings as a way to help us in daily life. The "doctors" DON'T want to remove everything...on purpose. And at the same time "they" allow many of us to continue to see things "unfiltered" with no removal - or less. The "leader" explained that the drawback to doing things this way is some people don't want to believe anything for a variety of reasons. Sometimes they want to feel more in control and don't want to be part of anything "bigger" - or they simply don't want to deal with anything more than what their 5 senses can send to their mind. At the same time there are those who are allowed to see a little more, who can handle it. Then there are people like me who they feel can handle it and have specific reasons (which was not explained to me..STILL!) for knowing/seeing what they know/see.  He also explained that when our energy (spirit, soul or whatever we want to call it) leaves us when our body dies, it then is no longer part of the "problem" our human form has built into it. So then we all see "the truth". Some choose to be part of the universe and "explore" with others - and go somewhere else, some choose to stay and want to return. But they know (at least for a short while) that returning and becoming part of a new human body means they will likely lose their knowledge of "the truth" - and they choose to do so. Sometimes though, they do remember "pieces" and experience more "deja vu" or have recollections of who they were before. But those experiences/memories are not "wiped away" because the "doctors" again, don't feel everything should be taken away. There's also occasions where something is missed, since this is going on constantly (people coming and going from the "hospital" in a 'flash') and the drawback is sometimes people DO remember experiencing or seeing something that frightens them - and it leads to someone going "crazy". Sometimes those events get 'fixed', sometimes damage is done so that the person can not separate the world from what they're experiencing/seeing on "the other side" and they simply can't cope.  It was also explained that when it is almost time for someone's human form to die, their brain is also deteriorating and it becomes difficult for "the doctors" (on the other side) to do their work - so these people are left to experience everything. It doesn't matter, because they are going to "cross over" (as we call it) soon. So they sometimes (frequently) start seeing things and people that are already "crossed over". Family members, seeing the beauty of being "unfiltered", etc... It was also explained that's why people who have near death or actually are dead for a period of time, CAN experience these things. Those experiences can be "wiped" upon their "return" to life or left intact. Again, depending on what the "doctors" choose.  Young children, whose minds are still growing are also left "unfiltered" for some time, so they can develop parts of their mind that are "in tune" with the rest of the universe. This is why some children talk about seeing things - angels, ghosts, hearing voices, etc... Each individual person has a specific time in their childhood when the "doctors" start removing and filtering. And as for the "doctors", they are actually what we would call "angels" or beings that are part of the universe that are our ancestors and understand our minds and life on Earth. They understand what we can and want to know and experience - and more importantly, what each of us is capable of knowing and experiencing. Some of us, when we depart our human form and choose to completely leave "become" the "doctors" and help with the process of helping others cope with life on Earth.  I was also shown a number of very influential people who are 'with us' now who are capable of seeing things "unfiltered". Some I knew, some I have no idea who they are. (They're CEO's or bosses of companies I have no idea of.) One of the influential people I saw was a picture of the current Pope. He can see the other side and likely knows as much as I do (heck, maybe more) about "the other side" and it is influencing his thoughts and now, obviously the Catholic Church. I haven't paid too much attention to any of what he's done, but it's apparently an attempt to open people's minds to "more" than they were used to before him.  I mention this because organized religion has had many people and part of the original basis for them was because of people who could see "things" and know what was going on.
Anyway, enough of this for now. The last few nights have shown me a lot to answer some questions. Of course I still ask "why me?"
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12/26/13: This is recounting a recurring but "dead end" premonition I've had for years that makes no sense. It pops up at least 3 times a month, with no additional information. But this month it's happened more than "usual", so I'm going to post it.
It starts with me laying in bed and "waking up" - although I know it's not really waking up. It's bright and sunny outside. I look at the digital calendar on the clock and it's 02/14/2014. Then all of a sudden I see a bright flash of light. Then over and over I see variations of the date: Feb. 14, 2014 or 2/14/14 or 02/14/14 or any other variation that says February 14, 2014. There's nothing else. No people, no "horror", no nothing. There's no indication of it being St. Valentine's Day, either - just the date over and over and bright flashes. However, this month I'm now hearing a whisper during all of the flashing and the date. All the whisper says is "the answer". Nothing else, just "the answer".  I get no "intuition" on this one, either. But as I say, this particular dream/premonition has been going on for years. I've written it down and never put it on here because it never gives any more information. Now, less than 2 months away, I get this whisper of "the answer" and that's it.
2/9/14 : This 2/14/14 dream is coming more than once per night now. I'm also having vivid "weird" dreams - not really "premonitions" because they're not "real" and more like metaphor messages for friends. I won't get into those on here. I've also been in contact recently with someone who is helping me decipher my ongoing question of "why me" - which is very helpful. But this morning (2/9/14) I had an intense "version" of the 2/14/14 dream. It not only was the numbers and date and the whispers of "the answer" and also for the past 2 or 3 weeks I also hear "the truth". Nothing else.
2/11/14-2/14/14: Follow up. In the 2/14/14 dream. OK, it's gotten really annoying and cryptic. I have removed a graphic I had previously posted, soliciting ideas as to its meaning. Parts of it I quickly figured out, other parts were too "really weird" for me to want to realize. BUT, in this dream I'm hearing another whisper of "It's a secret...it's a secret" along with "the truth" and "the answer".  This is really annoying me, because up to now, these premonitions/dreams made sense. They had a specific message that I eventually could piece together and eventually could make sense. This is really irritating to be experiencing.
Then on the morning of 2/14/14, there was another "flash" along with the date. This was very vivid - it said "RECEIVED" over and over. So I was getting 2/14/14 and "RECEIVED" with the whispers of "the truth", "the answer" and "it's a secret".  The only thing I can piece together (obviously) is that "the truth" and "the answer" have been "received" and "it's a secret".  That makes the most sense. But what? Where? When? (2/14/14?)
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2/14/14: From my hand written notes at 4 am: This one is different, but similar to the big tornado one last year. I think this is the 3rd time for this one. Huge tornado and I see buildings and houses being destroyed. Writing on signs is identifiable as U.S.A.  Bodies, blood. The tornado is huge. I see newspaper headlines "historic catastrophic twister" and news reports with reporters crying at what they're seeing. One reporter is saying "Oh God, not another one this year." Storm chasers stop chasing the tornado because of concern of danger. Then I see a landscape where there is complete devastation. Only a few tree trunks and marks where houses and buildings were. Many people can't find shelter fast enough and some never get the warning of what is coming. I believe it is this year. 2014. I can't tell exactly where this is, but the severity isn't really expected, but materializes.  Then I start seeing the 2/14/14 flashing lights and calendar again. It's the "truth" and "secret" one again. So it goes from the plain and easy to follow one to the cryptic and bizarre one. (I have put the new information of the 2/14/14 dream above in that section.)
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2/15/14 - I didn't think I'd bring forth this one so soon, but it was so vivid. From my hand written notes at  5:15 am: (After the repeating 2/14/14 and newer "big tornado" dream/premonition). The tornado event, where ever and whenever it is, ends. I'm somewhere else. In an office. Don't know where, just a "typical" office setting with cubicles. Everyone is talking about "is it really going to happen?" and "Is this the end of the world?". Then I'm suddenly standing outside - I think in a park. Kids around and it's a nice day. People are talking about "should we leave, where do we go?". Then I see news reports with things like "no one can really escape." and "This will test our strength as a society." I see no date or time. Outside it feels like spring or early summer. Then I see a scientist type interview on TV and he says "it will be almost like the Earth is turning inside out." Flash to standing outside with people on a street, there is a traffic jam. No one can move. A big black cloud is rising in the sky in the distance. A woman says "the only way to get away is to get on a rocket and leave the planet." A man next to her says "But then you have nothing to come back to and you can't float around in space forever." Flash to I'm sitting in a house with a family watching TV. There's a 'news flash' and the person on TV says "It has started. Stay where you are and details will follow.". Flash to another outside scene with people running and a dark cloud rushes in and it's a blistering hot wind with the cloud. Then I'm somewhere else - outside, people are screaming, kids are crying. The sky is darkening. Some people are screaming "we're all going to die, all of us." Then I see see numerous explosions of lava and dark clouds shooting into the sky. I don't see an actual volcano, no mountain or anything, just like the Earth opened up and is throwing up lava, rocks and dark clouds in huge amounts.  Then I wake up.  My first thought is this is a super volcanic eruption. There are only a few in the world. I don't see a date or time, so I don't know where or when this is yet. It could be Yellowstone or one of the others. Or it could be a new spreading ridge (there's one forming in Africa) where the Earth is beginning to rip apart and a chain of volcanic fissures will begin a new spreading area. But that one shouldn't be "dramatic" any time soon as far as I know. Any of these types of eruptions would have global consequences. I will see if this one happens again. It was extremely vivid this time and I saw from several perspectives in a row, so I think it's important. I didn't get that "urgent" feeling though - so this may be soon, but not imminent.
3/29/14 - Been a while again putting things on this page..but here's "the latest"... I have been having vivid premonitions involving people I know. I won't be posting those on these pages, since they are personal. Some of them are good - even extremely happy, while others are scary and not so good.
However, I have had the "big tornado" one several more times - and the volcano one several more times. That particular one is becoming a bit more "urgent" feeling and being more vivid. But I still don't see any kind of date or time or anything. I notice a lot of people are running/driving/flying away from large dark clouds and flying rock.  In one 'scene' I'm standing with a family on flat land looking off into the distance. They are talking with a southwest accent and making comments about the sky changing near the horizon. They are watching a large dark cloud rising as the sun sets. After dark they can see flashes of lightning near the horizon. The weather is still nice where they are, they see stars in the sky overhead. The man says "it will eventually get here, we need to prepare." I see news reports of "no airline flights in the area" and it's in plain english. This is leading me to lean more and more toward this being the Yellowstone supervolcano - or possibly the supervolcano in California.  But I think Yellowstone is more likely. I also get this feeling that it's going to be a surprise. No one is really "prepared".  Kind of like one day there will be some earthquakes in that area and the news is "don't worry about it" and "we don't really have to worry about it right now.." and the next day the word is out that "something could be developing" and the next day.."get out of the area immediately!"  It's kind of like Mt. St. Helens in the 1980s. No one was really expecting it to blow half the mountain off, but it did.  But this is much bigger. At one point I'm in a city - not NY, maybe Chicago or Indianapolis or Toledo - someplace like that. The sky is gray and there is a fine dirty dust falling on everything. People are walking around with cloths over their faces or surgical masks. Again, no year or sign with a date - which is frustrating. I hear a news report either coming from the radio or TV, while sitting in a house. The reporter is talking about crops dying and water becoming contaminated.  I did also see that there will be a lot of unrelated earthquakes and volcanoes "suddenly" (unexpectedly) erupting before this happens. Some of those (the earthquakes) will be quite large in magnitude. It's kind of like a bunch of worldwide events that "build up" to the bigger event.

5/8/15 at 3:00am: Had this large volcano eruption dream again. It's come before and it's pretty much the same dream as last year. This time I see a year - "2017". It's a calendar, but I can't see what month. But "2017" is clear. 
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3/30/14 - Current event: Yellowstone recorded its strongest earthquake in over 30 years. A 4.8, which was part of a swarm of at least 25 "significant" quakes in the past 4 days. It appears the "news" is just simply that it happened and not much about the status of the supervolcano. It's weird that a significant news story like this (all the networks, AP and other world news agencies are carrying it) simply mentions the quake, magnitude and a few mentioning the biggest in over 30 years and it's part of a "monitored" uplift they've been watching for 7 months - BUT no mention of what is actually happening with the supervolcano or any change in predictions or probabilities. The news stories sort of stop short of giving any more information. Is this something we should be worried about or not?
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1/7/15....Haven't had the time to do much with re-writing stuff onto this page. There's been a lot going on in "real life", including sudden and horrible back pain that has made life really uncomfortable recently. But I survive and it's getting better. The dreams go on and on. I still see lots of earthquakes and volcanoes going off - and it seems more "urgent" as if these will happen soon. Maybe this year (2015).
In all of this I don't write much about day-to-day stuff and my interactions with other people. But over the past 2-3 years, that has become more intense. I really wish I could somehow have other people see what I see and really understand it.
It's SOOOOOOO frustrating. I go to sleep and almost immediately get pulled into something - a dream where I'm seeing stuff - and usually several in a night.  I also get "informed" that I am 'supposed' to help someone, who I know or may not know yet (but soon).  It's all so bizarre and at times I just want it all to stop. I mean really just STOP. Supposedly someone I will work with soon really needs help and I mean REALLY needs some help and guidance. But why? Why can't "they" or whoever/whatever "they" are send this person to a doctor or counselor? Why me? "They" tell me in the dream it's because this person needs deeper help than what a doctor can prescribe.  So great, I'm supposed to help a co-worker with some deep stuff.  Again, why?!  I do have better things to do!
1/8/15... Just a quick update.... I saw the volcano erupt again. I think it's going to be in South America. I saw a view from space, like a satellite picture, of the cloud over the volcano and it looked like the coastal outline of South America.  What was weird was I also saw mountain climbers/hikers all dressed for winter (a lot of them) in some tall mountains, with ice and snow all around. I felt VERY cold and the wind was blowing. Then the ground started shaking and a wall of snow envelops everyone. I think it's an avalanche caused by the earthquake. A big one.  Everyone is screaming and yelling. But where they are it's not a volcano.  Maybe a volcano causes an earthquake in the mountains? Not sure.
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2/15/15 at 3:00am - Dream about having to help someone at work. This person may be beyond help from me or possibly in danger of really messing up the rest of their life. It seems like someone else is trying to get my attention in the dream. There is also an older man. Another story - another person, not associated with the person needing help. The older man tells me his name, "Ali"-something. It's a last name. My handwritten notes say "Ali-something..could not understand the rest."  He knows someone I will meet and will need to tell him about this man. Seems like a relative. It will be a surprise - unplanned. It has to do with religion - I saw crosses and religious statues. This man had an accent and could speak different languages. Maybe an "angel"? Or someone who is a"guardian angel"?

3/2/15 at 2:35am: My handwritten notes: I get a "warning" from a "spirit". He says very plainly "beware of the one who needs help, the help he needs is dire and he will deny it." I also see the words "workplace problems" over and over. I'll have to keep an eye out.  Also I'm watching TV and see a news report near water. It's a "normal" type of TV news story taking place outside and the reporter gets shot on live TV. It's scary. Someone wants everyone to see a murder on live TV.

4/7/15 at 3:00am - Repeat  of the person at work who needs help. At this point I know who it is. I have to be cautious. It's actually making sense and I can't write any more of it on here.
The TV report dream happened again. There is an angry man who wants to "settle the score" in his own mind and murders a TV reporter on live TV. It's completely unexpected.

5/10/15 at 1:30am: The "old man" came back. "Ali-something" is more like "Ali-guantas" - He's saying a name, but it's not coming in clearly. There's an accent or he's saying it in another language/dialect. He wants to let a family member know he's with them and watching them. He's coming across as "old" because he wants me to know he's a grandfather or great grandfather. He feels remorse for his own conduct before he left this world for the other side. He shows me a picture of a young man. He says "he needs guidance, he needs to know the truth".

7/7/15 at 4am: TV report dream again. Same thing. A murder on live TV during a "normal" type of report. It's warm outside. I feel like it's summer in the scene. The person who does this has planned it out and in his twisted mind, he wants everyone to see and even devises a way to run his own pictures or video on his own website of what he's doing. Like he is reporting what he's doing during the murder. It's all going to be live. He will take his own life in the end because he doesn't want to be captured. He is very sick in his mind.

3/10/15 at 4:30am: I wake up sweating after seeing a bunch of people running away from a large fire. It's an explosion at night or early in the morning. I can't tell if the brightness in the sky is from the fire or it's dawn. I smell a "chemical" smell.

4/2/15 at 2:00am: The fire dream again. Buildings are exploding near a neighborhood. Everyone is running out of their homes. I smell chemicals and see explosions and fire going high into the sky.  A lot of emergency vehicles. I feel this is coming soon. It's warm outside. People will be left homeless because of toxic clouds that last days.

5/12/15 at 2:00 am: The big fire dream again. From my handwritten notes: The fire burns for days, it's a huge area of buildings or something like a mall or warehouse where many things are inside. A lot of things burn that create a toxic cloud that covers a large area.  People are evacuated, some run away during the fires. It goes on for days. I see a view from an airplane, with a long cloud that goes on for miles and miles.

1/1/15 - I keep seeing "October" and "October 2015" flashing in lights and various calendars flashing by.  One day is highlighted/circled, but I can't see which one because the calendars are flashing by too fast. It looks like the first week.

1/12/15 at 2am - The calendar dream again. It's October over and over. Lighted displays and paper calendars showing "October" and "2015" - this year.

3/2/15 at 5am: I wake up from seeing the calendars again. Over and over it's "OCTOBER 2015". There are dates circled on the calendars. It looks like Oct. 7, Oct. 10 and Oct. 12. One of those dates is a Wednesday. I see that clearly. (Need to check an actual calendar for this year.)

5/9/15 - I had the calendar dream/premonition again. It's definitely October 2015. The dates 7, 10 and 12 on one calendar light up and catch on fire - burning holes in the calendar itself. I hear the sound of a clock ticking loudly.

8/2/15 at 4:30am- Calendar dream has happened several times in June and July. Same as 5/9 - From my handwritten notes on 8/2:  I had the October calendar dream again. Just woke up feeling like it was October, like now IS October, but it's August 2.  While I see the calendars and the dates 7, 10, 12 over and over, there is a voice saying "the time has come" several times. The dates start burning on the paper calendars. I see people looking upward toward the sky. The sky looks "blank" - nothing happening. A woman says "we were warned." I see a boy riding a bicycle - he's about 5 or 6 years old. He disappears from the bicycle and it falls over. I hear a loud BANG and wake up.

9/19/15 at 3am - I wake up shaking after seeing the October dream. I see those dates over and over and over in various forms. Oct. 7, 10 and 12. It is definitely 2015. They are a Wednesday and the following Saturday and Monday. I hear people crying. A whisper type voice in my ear says "we did this to ourselves". I see crowds of people running but I don't know where they are going. It's in streets and past buildings. I see a man commit suicide in his home while watching TV.  It's very scary - like something has happened that is affecting everyone. I see people in a church praying and asking God to help us. They are crying, too.  It's almost like not a singular "event", but a global "change" or something negative hits society. Not everyone is completely affected - or they don't think so, but it's something that changes the world. I get this strange feeling that it's a "chance" to make things right and not everyone will see what really needs to be done. It's kind of confusing because it's not a singular event (like a bomb or eruption or something like that) - but singular events may rise from these 3 dates because of a bigger event.